Ekkusu no Studio phase 4.1.
Happy 44th birthday, dearest Yoshiki ♥!!
The last time i updated my skin was on Yochan's 43rd birthday, and a year had passed. I'm glad that his surgery went fine and i hope he's recovering well. Don't neglect your therapy, Yochan, and hope to see you next year in China ^^
God bless your abundantly!!
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A fan of JRock music and bands. Most favourite band of all time: the legendary band, X Japan.
Loves its leader, drummer, pianist and main composer, Hayashi Yoshiki , usually called Yoshiki.
Loves one of X's guitarists, Matsumoto hideto, or usually called hide, and
one of the best vocalist I've ever heard, Deyama Toshimitsu, or usually called Toshi.
A list of favourite bands and artists/singers:
Versailles Philharmonic Quintet
(members: Kamijo (vo),
HIZAKI (gt) ,
Teru (gt) ,
Yuki (dr), ,
Jasmine-You (ba) ,
Tohoshinki or Dong Bang Shin Ki or TVXQ
(members: Xiah Junsu (mid-high), Micky Yoochun (mid-low), Youngwoong-Hero Jaejoong (lead), Choikang-Max Changmin (tenor), U-Know Yunho (bass))
SKIN
(members: Yoshiki (dr, pi) , Gackt (vo, pi), Sugizo (gt, vi), Miyavi (gt))
Lareine
(members: Kamijo (vo) , Mayu (gt), Emiru (ba), Machi (dr))
Kamijo (vo)
(bands: Lareine, Versailles
HIZAKI
(bands: HIZAKI grace project, Versailles )
Mana
(bands: Moi dix Mois, Malice Mizer)
Raphael
(members: Kazuki (gt), Yukito (ba), Yuki (vo), Hiro (dr))
DuelJewel
Dir en Grey
L~Arc en Ciel
Janne da Arc
Psycho le Cemu
GLAY
Luna Sea
Rentrer en Soi
Siam Shade
Was part of management committee of Endless Dream website and
ScreamingKIAI International forum, dedicated to Yoshiki and his music.
Alumni of the following schools:
Jakarta, Indonesia:
TK Genesis
SD Tarakanita III
Penang, Malaysia:
Chung Ling Private High School
Singapore:
Kent Ridge Secondary School
St Margaret's Secondary School
Pioneer Junior College
St Andrew's Junior College
Thursday 31 July 2008
prologue: Labels: manga anime
started hearing about this manga from several classmates, only as a mention. desmond and brandy both said that it's nice. knew nothing about it before that, though i've often seen it among the manga titles available in websites. then one time i was idling at AE, and just decided to get it and test-see it. after getting, didn't watch straight away. then when i get the psp, i used the file to test if psp can be used to watch videos and what format must i convert it to. so i started watching then.
episodes 1-6:
i'd say it's one of the anime with better music than most others. the composition of the music, its placing, sound effect, all are really good! some more, the drawing is pretty cool, the characters interesting (although i'm just interested in that happy-go-lucky inspector and Allen's crazy master); the hero isn't acting too cool or too dumb or too confident, he's just right, although he has the typical heroism-syndromme just like all other heroes, but i think i'm gonna like him better than some other heroes; there's no annoying character (just yet) and the basic storyline is interesting and very develop-able.
in a way, it's like Bleach with characters possessing different (but similar) weapons with skills attached to it, and we could watch these characters unravelling their skills one by one while the main character continues to evolve his own ability. in another way it's similar to Chrno Crusade with monsters to destroy and them being the only people (sort of) who are able to that.
i haven't watched it enough to be able to write a review, but i think i'm gonna have fun with d-gray man from now! =D
note on episode 3: "nashigoren" --->?????????????? nasi goreng!!!!!!!!! allen was ordering for nasi gorenggg!!!!!!!!!! xDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i really really really like the voice actor for allen!! his voice is...different from most of other characters. there's this tone, or maybe it's his voice, that tickles me when i listen to him talk (sometimes), just like Naruto's voice actor ^^ that part about the akuma that almost died when allen was shooting him, but turned to be perfectly healthy and uninjured when he suddenly stopped shooting is a bit unbelievable... but otherwise, i think this is a good anime =)
on an anime-less note, i keep staring at my reflection and i can't decide if my hair is shorter, just as short, or not as short as yamapi in summer time PV.... if i don't see it for myself, it feels very very short, shorter than pi-chan. maklum emang ga pernah sependek ini seblumnya. but if i see my reflection in the mirror, it's really not that short... i really dunno -_-
i'm practicing singing Kobukuro's Tsubomi xD it's a really nice song!
12:03 am
Monday 28 July 2008
alamak, i was going to blog about Versailles just now, but i accidentally opened the last tegomassu performance with COLOR at music fair -_- now i'm all tsubomi-mood... Labels: versailles
@obachan, learn the song onegaishimasu! xD let's duet it on the next cash studio session! (notice i no longer say k-box session....)
alright, back to Versailles mode!
first thing first: welcome back to the world, my dearest iLuv headphones! xD it's been out for weeks, months! due to my carelessness of putting the iPod in my jeans pocket everyday, the cable at the base of the headphone got folded, and after about 2 months the right speaker finally lost its sound. for the last couple of weeks of last term, i had started using my old iPod earphones again -_-
i've been looking around for people who might be able to fix it for me. i know the problem isn't at the speaker itself but at the cable near the plug. but everytime i ask anyone (in electronic shops, of course) if they can fix headphones, without having the chance to say that it's the cable's problem, they would immediately say to me: "no." -_- my parents asked me to "just buy a new one" and i kept quiet. i love my iLuv -_-...
finally yesterday we went to glodok. at the (perhaps) 8th shop that i asked, finally the person said, "tapi plug nya mesti diganti," to which i eagerly said, "ganti aja" and then happily waited for him to fix it up for me. it took quite a long time and many times of trials for him to finally suceed restoring sound to both speakers. for Rp15.000, i think it's a really great deal =DDDD
so, i've started putting songs into the psp. currently it only has 2 albums and 1 additional song, namely Lyrical Sympathy, Noble and The Revenant Choir original version song. now that i've started to watch the psp (not playing game in it), i started to explore different settings that it has. surprisingly it's pretty good as an mp3 player. several sets of visualisations are available, and several sets of equalizer mode too (pop, jazz, unique, none...) currently i find that Versailles is best to be listened at jazz mode.
after "filling something" inside the music folder, now i want to put something in the video folder. so i'm, again, in the search for (free, virus-less and fully working) software that can help me convert my video clips into mp4 that is recognised by PSP. i want to put Aristocrat's Symphony PV inside ^3^
so far....so bad -_- oh well, i'll persevere.... here's the PV of the (currently) strongest song in Versailles' debut album, Noble. enjoy it before it's taken down by youtube.
Versailles - Aristocrat's Symphony
if [hana the jrock-crazed half] be separated from [hana the normal girl] half, [hana the normal girl half] would probably say that the PV is pretty cheesy. the costumes themselves are amazing, gorgeous, exquisite! but the way the video was shot left much to be desired. these guys are musicians, they're not actors, not even pop-idols, so shooting them in a long time frame without anything specific to do is a pretty bad idea. sometimes, even doing a simple thing (like lifting up a sword, or turning a head) could look ridiculously awkward because it's too long! i've noticed it since The Revenant Choir. Shout and Bites was, fortunately, dizzying and confusing enough for us to actually see anything definite in the midst of those blitzes in the dimmed room.
if i'm watching the PV with the music off and with half my eyes closed (so that i can't notice those gorgeous costumes they have), i could perhaps switch on that hana mode.
however, [hana the jrock-crazed half] would say that this setting and costume is, perhaps, the best style of PV for their music genre, and their music genre is the best style for this kind of setting and costume. vampire, gothic, baroque, victorian (heck if i know the difference between them all!) are very commonly used in visual-kei bands' PVs, they're not new. but i've never seen them used in such a perfect harmony with the music that the story and the concept of the band could be read and felt so strongly and clearly by watching the PV.
i've never been so impressed by such style (could someone enlighten me if they're victorian or baroque or gothic -_-), vampire-themed PV. even Malize Mizer's Bara no Seidou is coming in second place. and this is without a scene of blood! Versailles is the best! and their theme isn't exactly about vampire either o.O
by the way, it always pains me to see kamijo brutally chopping his gorgeous locks!! >_<> why, kamijo, why??? why must you do it twice??? i was already shocked when i saw his shortened hair when he was in Lareine, and then i was happy again to see his long hair in Lyrical Sympathy period, and now he has short hair again!! xOOOO just take a look at his long hair in the 2008 new year shoot, just take a look at the side here >>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> why must he cut his hair xOOOOOOOOO
music wise, kamijo, again, proved what a genius composer he is. it's always sad to think back about Lareine and its concept and story. even with so many disruptions (members going, members coming, members coming back after going, members disappearing,...) kamijo still managed to make a story out of Lareine, the outline of the concept was faint, but it was there. the majority of Lareine's work when kamijo was left all alone in the band wasn't strong, but it would have been, if only everyone were there. i love Lareine's songs that has real music (and not just poppish, synthesizer-backed poppish sound)...
well, maybe hizaki and kamijo were the best thing that had happened to both of them respectively. while hizaki's skill was much to be admired, kamijo was the one who had created the songs that had produced the best guitar solos from both hizaki and teru. and without everyone, kamijo's songs wouldn't be able to be produced into such great songs. they deserve each other, everyone of them in Versailles! ^___^
if there's one thing that i wish Aristrocat's Symphony to have, it's a longer and greater guitar solo. The Love From The Dead Orchestra still has my favourite guitar solo. just add another minute to its 6++ minutes, it wouldn't matter much, and it would make thousands of fans happier =DDD
now i'm searching the net for translations of Noble lyrics. Lyrical Sympathy has conveniently attached the english translations of its lyrics inside the booklet, thus letting me understand better about the story. (no, even after that i'm still much in the dark. i'm not a literature student, and kamijo hadn't been too specific and blatant in the way he told his story, so....)
5:58 pm
Saturday 26 July 2008
possibly my favourite comedian. "heeeeh??" you say, whoever knew show luo as a comedian instead of a (drop dead gorgeous) singer/actor?? Labels: celebrity
well, many many years ago (omg i sounded so old...) when me and xiao fung were still residing in burgundy, we always watch Channel U's variety show at night. sometimes it's the veteran MC Jackie's shows, together with (usually) aya or gang-gang and no-no. on other nights, it would sometimes have my favourite trio comedian xiao zhu, hei ren and makiyo. sometimes they would also be joined by other comedians, unfortunately i couldn't remember the names but they were equally hilarious xD
when he's not being funny, he's still very eye-catching. but when he's being funny, whooo, uncle came downstairs one night to tell us to keep our voices down lest we'll disturb the neighbours! oops~~
one particularly funny show was when xiao zhu and one more comedian (somehow i remember his nickname as "romeo"....??) were trying to impersonate jolin tsai. complete with a full song, complete dance routines, costumes, and even backdancers to facilitate everything. moreover, jolin herself was present as part of the judges.
if you read that carefully, i said: costume. yeap, they were wearing costumes that were made similar to jolin. read: sleeveless, of course. and while xiao zhu was dancing, he lifted up his arm, showing some armpit hair, and he (acting-)embarrassedly covered it up with another hand instead of putting down his arm.
i laughed til my stomach hurt a lot xDD he's hilarious!
but as time goes by, i seldom saw him on variety shows. and later on i heard that he was going to the showbiz as a singer. i knew that he could play the piano, as xiao fung once told me: on one variety show he was sat in front of a piano and start doing a yoshiki (read: banging away and making horrendous music) and people were thinking that he couldn't play. but then, soon after that, he broke into a really nice song beautifully... sounds cool, eh? ^^ such a pity i didn't watch it.
so why suddenly i talked about things that happened 5 years ago?
well a few days ago, suddenly i have a new craving to listen to his voice, xiaozhu, so i bought his album for the first time.
i'm not into R&B and rap and hip-hop kind of music, and it seemed like his voice is better suited for ballads, and taiwanese are best in making heart-wrenchingly-sad MVs anyway, so i went to youtube and searched for 2 of his songs that i liked in the album Show Your Dance: Wo Bu Hui Chang Ge and Zui Hou De Feng Du.
Luo Zhi Xiang - Wo Bu Hui Chang Ge
in this MV, somehow i saw the shadows of yamapi and ryo on xiaozhu...!!! O.O!!! really!! at one point he could really feel yamapi-ish and at other times he looked ryo-ish... though his voice is beyond the combination of those two =P
Luo Zhi Xiang - Zui Hou De Feng Du
so mellow and sad.... after watching these 2 MVs, i really missed those days when me and xiao fung could watch him acting like a dork and making a fool of himself on variety shows, and being freakin funny while at it...
and one more, while i'm at it:
Makiyo - Sign of Wish
wew, i didn't know that she sings too O.o.. typical japanese female singer voice, ne? like hitomi and ayumi. but it's decent enough, i'd say ^_^ it's the ending song for Beyblade, btw. i don't watch Beyblade, but it's written on the comments. i like it when she speaks chinese, her mouth is almost always smiling xD
and, an example of what kind of show me and xiao fung watched during our nightly laughter-session:
S.H.E was still very very young then, yea? xiaozhu was completely overwhelming hebe, who doesn't have to do anything other than looking submissive beside her seemingly-crazy master xD i almost didn't notice xiaozhu breaking into hokkian in the middle of his cooking o.O would makiyo understand??
hei ren was acting a bit...strange o.O the highlight of hei-ren-selina show as makiyo breaking into hysterical laughter (ala makiyo) everytime hei ren screamed, and xiaozhu's intervention and thus proving that he's a natural comedian xDD and, really, after xiaozhu's show, the rest seemed rather bland...? coz he's really the craziest xD
1:24 pm
i've just had my hair cut.
it's short.
super short!
think: yamapi in Summer Time PV
=DDD
the shortest hair i've ever had ever!
i still retain my tail though. but it's been cut shorter and trimmed down.
still basking in the mood for Versailles. i think i'll retain this Versailles layout for the rest of the year xDD
Update for top story from the Home frontier: the creature that was stucked in my garage had finally been released to the outside world. Last night, at around 2am in the morning, it kep meow-ing pitifully from its hiding place in the midst of the junks. I felt so sorry for it. Luckily in the morning the housekeeper found it, stucked in between the cage for drinking water gallons. Quickly she put it outside, where the creature bundled itself frightfully underneath the car.
Don't come in again, you hear me?
12:58 pm
Friday 25 July 2008
Now for entertainment news from the Home frontier. Labels: hizaki, kamijo, versailles
Today, at approximately 12pm, the postman finally came to deliver the package that yours truly had waited for more than a week. The package contained the biggest excitement that yours truly had had since November 2007. The debut album of, arguably, the most-talked visual kei band in the JRock scene currently: Noble, Vampire's Chronicle Versailles.
Just minutes before the package was announced to yours truly, a message was sent to an old X Japan fan, who was as fanatical about Versailles as yours truly, Marco (aka Blind Rage). A hint was given out that: "The album was a masterpiece!"
Considering the previous achievements of Versailles, that was hardly surprising. However, that did increase the anxiety to start listening to the album. After all, it would be the official debut of Versailles. Yours truly was highly anticipating works that would match the greatness of The Love From The Dead Orchestra, The Revenant Choir and The Red Carpet Day.
Beautifully packaged together in the box was a CD, a bonus DVD and a booklet. On the booklet cover was an intricate and elaborate "V" emblem that, yours truly hope, would be the official and permanent symbol of Versailles. The content of the booklet, surprisingly, reminded yours truly strongly to Malice Mizer; in fact, the combination of both famed era of Malice Mizer: the romantic, flamboyantly dressed Gackt era and the heavily gothic, dracula-themed Klaha era, were felt in the Noble booklet.
Versailles and Malice Mizer. The comparison and contrasting of this two bands could produce quite a lengthy essay. On the surface, Kamijo, Gackt and Klaha had their own charms acting as the Lord of the bands, besides possessing powerful singing voice that could match the demand of respective band's songs. As their Princesses, Hizaki seemed more innocent and gullible if put side by side with cold and silent Mana, though considerably more convincing while playing the guitar. As a personal opinion, Teru is much more recognised than Kozi who tends to be overshadowed by Mana and whoever the vocalist was at that point of time. It could perhaps due to both Hizaki and Teru acting as the twin-guitars in Versailles, thus, apart from the title of being "one of the founder", Hizaki does not overshadow Teru so much. (...) (discussion unable to continue due to writer's lack of in-depth knowledge about Malice Mizer)
However, in terms of music, they are not exactly like each other. Malice Mizer during Gackt era could still be associated with Lareine, both in terms of music and costumes. Versailles, however, is like Lareine that is being overwhelmed by the influence of metal and neoclassical musicians while retaining the core of a beautiful symphony at its centre.
The start of Noble was signalled by, not surprisingly, another beautiful instrumental with a haunting melody by Kamijo, just like in Lyrical Sympathy. Into the second song of the album, yours truly had a massive goosebumps attack. Kamijo is, afterall, a superb composer! So far, Aristrocat Symphony was the strongest song of the album! (opinion could change later as the album gets listened to over and over again!)
Briefly scanning the album's contents, it was apparent that Versailles will not go towards a total domination by only one member. Out of the 12 songs of the album, 4 songs were composed by the two founders of the band: Kamijo and Hizaki; creating a total of 16 minutes 44 seconds and 23 minutes and 19 seconds worth of songs respectively. Teru, proving himself a worthy composer with his The Red Carpet Day, had a wealthy share of 3 songs with a total of 10 minutes and 14 seconds. All lyrics, however, were handled by the man with the story to link everything up: Kamijo.
One more song was credited to the whole of Versailles, that is: the debut song of the band: The Revenant Choir. The remastered version was included in the Japanese version of Noble while the European version contains both the original version and the remastered version. Though, the European fans would be missing on the beautiful photo booklet that was included with the Japanese version.
Further report coming up your way as soon as yours truly had listened to the whole album many times enough to start judging which pieces that she liked the most. (Though, currently the title of the "better composers" of the group does not, sadly, shine upon dear Hizaki-sama...)
4:59 pm
Now for top stories from the Home frontier.
Today, at approximately 12pm according to eye-witness (or ear-witness, in this case), Home was invaded by a creature.
The first sign of the creature was discovered at around 1pm nearby the sofa, at the living room at the first floor, in the form of excretement. The Mistress of the House was outraged by the discovery but could do little about it as the creature was nowhere to be seen. Both the Mistress of the House and yours truly then left the house.
At 3.30 pm, as yours truly arrived home, she heard a sound of meow-ing in the house. Then she recalled that around 12pm, the same sound was heard repeatedly for a period of time. As she was in the middle of some important discussion on the internet, subconsciously she dismissed it as coming from outside. Little did she expect the creature to be, actually, inside the house!
After briefly combing the first floor of the house for any sign of the creature, she went to the second floor. To her horror, she saw the creature, sitting at the top of the stairs as though waiting for her to arrive. She called upon her housekeeper and both of them chased the little creature into the spare bedroom. To her bigger horror, she discovered that the creature had left another of its signature on the sofa at the second floor.
Curiosity and apathy turned into wrath and anger.
Inside the bedroom, however, they failed to summon enough courage to capture the little foul being. After much deliberation and a two-minute entertainment in the form of watching the little foul creature ran here and there and bumping its body into the door, the window pane, the wall and the wardrobe door with a loud noise, the housekeeper chased it out into the garage by the aid of a broom.
And now that little foul creature is still there, hiding in the midst of big junks, away from the reach of the broom.
Just you wait til the Master of the House arrived and found out that his sofa had been befouled by the piss of a cat!
4:27 pm
Thursday 24 July 2008
koko's going back sg today. it'll mark the start of my BTSS, i'm quite sure.
prediction: my last week here will be spent: mostly doing nothing while my mood keeps darkening.
-_- at least starting next monday i'll have the maddening transitive-intransitive japanese lesson to keep me stressed enough to stop thinking about the start of school.
and, at least i'll have some events to look forward too, soon after school reopening. like, the convocation on 3rd september which would be attended by my whole family xD how many students get to wear the convocation toga twice? xDD
and i'm looking forward to the upcoming lebaran too, during which my parents would go to singapore. i don't care if the project week lies on the same week as the hari raya holiday or not, if my parents come, i'll accompany them.
will i be stucked with this Versailles layout for the rest of the year? hmmm....
2:49 pm
Wednesday 23 July 2008
just watched Shounen Club Premium feat Keichan. now, together with Yamapi and Tesshi, we have 3 people claiming that the early period of NewS was horrid. i think it's good that they started with yamapi, since he was considered the dai-senpai, and he made the basic overview about the early NewS. after that, his kouhais (though they're not necessarily younger than him in terms of age) can follow suit and tell Taichi the truth without feeling scared that they've crossed their senpais. Labels: NEWS
watching the video just now made me realise that KAT-TUN was really way more senior than NEWS, eventhough they debuted later, huh? i bet there wasn't such tension in KAT-TUN like it was in early NewS. 2 people (out of 3!) already claiming that they've had the intention to quit johnnys.
demo, "winners are not quitters and quitters never win" ne. congratulations for being able to persevere and continue moving on until today, NEWS! ^_^
i'll have to remember that phrase well.
11:12 am
Saturday 19 July 2008
went to youtube while looking for an ancient song for my mom (anyone has heard the song "shina no yoru"? i'm sure your mom and dad would know it!) trus jadi keterusan. youtube has made it so convenient for us to search for any videos that we want to watch, and the first words i typed were "tegomass". no new vids, i've watched them all, and some of the newest ones were provided by newshfan, of course. and then, the next words i typed, duno why, were "versailles". perhaps i was anticipating the arrival of Noble, which cdjapan had delivered 2 days ago to me.
"embedding is disabled by request" --> new feature by youtube, huh? well, i can't share the videos here then. but just want to say that these guys were such jokers offstage, even though on stage they were stiff by their costumes and makeups xD saw them making the "PV" for The Red Carpet Day, and it was so silly xDD 5 grown-ups making fool of themselves on DVD, and still made it available to the fans. i think they're great xDD
then, while waiting for some of the videos to load, i watched the one i just got from newshfan, the music station performance of hey say jump last week. their new song, "your seed" is just normal, imo. their best song, yet, is still their debut song J-U-M-P ^^
BUT, here's the but, the dance movement is pretty cool =D these are some of my comments while watching the video:
- i feel scared for yamachan...for acquiring such an idol charm and mastering such seductive gestures at such a young age... 15-year-olds should be more like kawaii chinen, all smile-y and cutesy in front of camera, or innocently and boyish-ly charming like yuuto... to compare between yamachan and tesshi, i think yamachan is more capable of seducing people in front of the camera O.o i mean, if you have the video from newshfan, look at 1:20.... when he reached yamapi's age, i wouldn't know what would become of him... (i'd rather consider that as a compliment instead of an insult, ne?)
- yesh, beauty is in the eyes of the beholder, ne? for me, the most handsome and coolest is still yamachan, and my favourite and the cutest is still chinen ^^ duno why, maybe it's because of the colour, black, but chinen looked somewhat more mature, a little bit, though he's still the only one with three-quarter pants in the group. well at least he had graduated from the shorts xDD btw at 2:05, 4 out of 5 of my favourite members of the hey say jump are there ^^
- dance. yes, what would jani jimusho groups be without their dance routines, ne? at 2.28-3.05 it was particularly cool =D haha i like watching chinen dance ^^ his steps are so light!
12:06 am
Thursday 17 July 2008
O.O in this kind of situation i really regret not having a comment button in my blog (not my fault, though... i want it to be there, but i don't know how to make it appear!) but all the precious comments left in my tagboard akan diabadikan *ciee* coz i'm gonna copy&paste it into this entry xD
thank you all for sharing bits and pieces of wisdom with me... *mass hugs everyone* somehow gw jadi inget kata2 guru gw, "you all have set too high expectations of yourself. you're not as bad as you think you are..." but then usually what happens during consultation is that the message that gets across is precisely that: we are as bad as we thought we are!
merry bilang: kerja keras kayak gitu cuma buat nilai segede toge
lol... what a cute phrase! and true too! actually i'd love to be like the rest of the people who got time to have a life outside school, can party every weekend, go pubbing every other night, hang out in starbucks after class... instead of the miserable life me, mimi and merry had been living in the past one and a half years, staying back in school for work as soon as the second week of the semester, weekdays and weekends coming into the broken-up rock (read: my school building) until we know the security guards pretty well (who's good and who's not) and what time they'll be coming to make their nightly rounds...
how many times have we lamented, "enak ya jadi kayak xxx ato yyy gitu, bisa keluar tiap ari... kitanya yg slow banget apa mereka yg cepet kerjanya ya?" and in the end all those for what? for a 48.67 average out of 100. if this is A's, that's a miserable AO! -___-;;;;;
perhaps that, and the fact that my overtime buddies won't be there next semester, are the most heavy factor in my reluctance to come back to school. but, hey, you can't always have what you want in life, ne.
it's just another year. 2 other miserable semesters. 4 other monstrous terms. and then i can wave goodbye to everyone, everything in 1st McNally Street.
quote pi-chan: i believe that people should work as hard as they can so that they can become people. (literal translations? sorry if it sounded funny).
yes, i've talked to my dad about it, and, eventhough i'm the one who don't want to continue the most, i told him that i will continue for another year. and he supported me.
but... i don't want to have similar miserable time i've had for the past 3 semesters. i'm gonna take the advice of everyone here, everyone's advice! try to forgive myself, have a lighter expectations of myself, brighter perspective of life, taking criticism with a broader mindset, learn to seize opportunities and create luck for myself from my own perspective, enjoy life (and misery) while it lasts and hopefully, as tony said, "life will unfold in the strangest, most unexpected way!" =D who knows that's a prediction i'll be meeting someone special without me having to embark on life-partner-finding journey with obachan xD
precious advice from everyone:
<lin>: awwwww.... i know how u feel when a parent says all those. Tiap mami gue bilang gitu ato papi gue bilang gitu... it never failed to get me all teary-eyed.
<nata_el>: im getting more emotional as i get older too... i think im gona cry during convo.. not because it's too 'emotional' but there's guilty consciousnes in me (i didnt TRY my best these 4 years).. whereas uv always done ur best... so, forgive yourself na!
<lysia>: hello hana, hehe cuma numpang lewat neh.. hehe anyway, i'm not sure what happened to you A level,but my two cents is that you've gotta believe in yourself that you WILL be somebody in the future. Never give up and don't let others shake your confidence!
<lin>: na i totally understand how you feel abt the confidence part. I can relate to how you must have felt though i learnt it a different way. But i learnt not to overpressurise myself. Sometimes, we think too much of the way other criticize us. but in actual fact, we should learn something from what they critic n improve on it. that's why our confidence fall. Learn to release the pressure and slowly others will notice the improvemnts
<stony>: numpang juga ah!!! br sempte baca! hahahha. @ work now! ;P jus wanna say: dun care bout your grades, take in n learn whatever you can, enjoy everything while thye last n life will unfold in the strangest, unexpected way!
<lysia>: you know, baru2 ini juga seseorang ajarin gue kalo 'luck is preparation meets opportunity'. so,you don't study just for the grades.but you study to prepare yourself so that you can seize all opportunities to succeed. then you will feel lucky all the time =)) don't care what others say, just learn as much as you can.apapun yang lu pelajari sekarang, pasti ada guna nya and will prepare you for a better future!
9:59 pm
Wednesday 16 July 2008
to nat, lin, lysia: thank you for your comments ^___^ didn't expect any comments so soon, actually, maklum blog gw kaga diupdet2 pas gw disini. but thank you ^__^
that reminds me, your convocations coming soon, yea? marlin malah udah lewat kan? CONGRATULATIONS ON GRADUATING!!! ^___________^ now you'll be blogging as "contributing member of the society" (quote kei-chan xD) omedetou gozaimasu!!!! i'll miss our after-exam partying mode...even if we don't really party but just be happy together ^^
confidence, ne~ i told koko, "confidence is not something that you can grow overnight" and it's particularly hard for people like me in this field where everyone and anyone you meet isn't as good as you might perceived him to be, where daily dosage of criticism (not to mention harsh criticism delivered in jeering tone at your best work) is as normal as eating meal 3 times a day.
it's something that i've been trying to grow since last year, or since i realised how much i needed it to survive this course til diploma and further. but so far i don't feel like i've made any improvement at all.
wouldn't it be nice if i can be like mariah carey's song, incidentally my favourite song of hers for many many years,
beautiful song, isn't it? i love that song ever since i heard it the first time in hell. (ref: my first house in singapore) and i've been practicing singing that song ever since. and i still can't sing it properly xDD
alrightey, let's get brighter! one day of moody-ness is enough!
on sat i went out with yessichan and albert (who felt like my old friend due to the fact that everytime i go out with yessichan, he also come along =D) and yessichan's younger bro. guess where we went. ...................... we went to *drumrolls* inul vizta!! xDDDDDDD yeapz, you heard me right! such a horrendous name, i thought the first time i saw the name. then lia said that it was a k-ok place, and i shuddered.
but, hey, it's only at TA, and i was curious. so we went! LOL~ the entrance (if you don't come up by the right elevator) is very ulu, through the 6th floor parking lot. but the place isn't as bad as i thought it would be. in fact, it's as nice as k-box. the room was a bit small though. they also have many pool tables outside the karaoke rooms. i was browsing the songs for japanese songs. not many. there's ONE quite recent song that i knew, Fukai Mori, the Inuyasha theme song by Dreams Come True, i think.
and, of course, Ii hi Tabidachi, which i learnt to sing by listening to the recorded mp3 of Tegomass and Tanimura Shinji during Music Fair session last year. teehee, almost everywhere i go i sing that song. not because i like it, but because the japanese songs that most k-ok places have are mostly from that era, the era when i wasn't born yet -____-:::
the next time we go out, i'm gonna drag them to NAV. i've checked out Happy Puppy, which also doesn't provide much japanese songs. NAV have quite a lot, if i remember correctly, but all of them couldn't be sung -__- something wrong with their system! hopefully within this one year they've fixed it up.
i'm waiting for newshfan to translate the domoto kyoudai show for tegomass's ai ai gasa promo. i hope she will.... it's fun to watch them, the 2 duet groups from johnnys ^^ especially if koichi is in half-tipsy mode xDDD
11:35 pm
Tuesday 15 July 2008
13th july 2008 is a day that i will remember. it was the day that i asked for forgiveness from my dad for my mistakes in the past. in particular regarding my A's. Labels: musing
outside my family circle, i think there were only 2 people who knew about my 'crisis' regarding school matter, and i'm sorry for being in such a weird mood when i talked to you on MSN that day. i was trying to psycho myself to be cheerful, on top of trying to put my mind off the topic.
but on sunday i finally talked about it with my dad. and koko. my mom was bathing.
such a drama. haven't cried so much in so long. and it was the first time i cried so openly in front of my dad too. in the past, he'd only heard me wailing through the phone (when i was forcefully pulled from penang into singapore). isn't it weird that i'm getting more crybaby-ish the older i get?
but one thing for sure: i'm feeling much better now. much, much better. i guess that for 2 years, ever since A's ended, my subconscious might have been secretly feeling guilty and bad about my A's result and how i failed to get into the course that i really wanted to take. 2 years of guilt that has gnawed my conscience. if it's a tooth and there's a dentist, it would definitely be extracted out.
it all began after my mom came back from singapore. minghui have talked to her about my studies, the topic that had taken place last year as i moved to her grandma's house. my mom agreed with her that it's not necessary to obtain a degree in this field, and that i should try taking Bio again as that was what interest me the most last time.
so at night, the topic was opened again. and i grabbed the opportunity to say how much i was sorry for 'wasting away the chance that he'd given me at A's', and how much i was sorry for the prospect of 'wasting away another 2 years if i don't finish this til degree'.
not so much talking as sobbing. i was even surprised at myself. how hard it was to utter a phrase as short as "hana minta maaf". my jaws were glued, the words stuck on my throat, unable to come out. probably because of those sobbings. where did those tears come from? beats me. i wasn't planning on getting so emotional at all, it just came.
nevertheless i got the point across. perhaps we're all familiar with a favourite phrase "sorry doesn't cure". true, it doesn't. especially when the guilty party doesn't even forgive herself, eventhough my dad has never minded the least bit.
i guess that was the factor that made matters worse.
i blamed myself. my parents had never blamed me. and because of that, i blamed myself even more.
especially now, when it's beyond my capability to excel academically. how would i be able to make my parents happy again?
a wrong path that had continued to twist itself into worse situation. upon looking back, these 2 years had felt like such a situation.
that's why that short phrase that i finally able to say, and the comforting words of my dad that followed, felt like a blessing.
"biar bagaimana pun papa bakal selalu dukung loe sepenuhnya."
not to mention bits and pieces of other phrases that i managed to record into my brain even when it was feeling so wrecked, like "papa ngga mau tekan loe terus, kayak orang laen gitu, nilai harus bagus gini gitu, papa ngga mau... asal loe bisa naik kelas aja... loe santai aja... biar gimana juga papa ngga bakal jeblosin loe, koko, mama, hany juga ngga bakal jeblosin loe... 2 taon ini bukan dibuang dong, kan ilmunya ada... ngga usah dengerin kata2 orang..." and such...
now i'm able to look upon my future with a lesser burden on my guilty shoulder. even if i'm back to lasalle for one last year at BA course, even if the situation hasn't changed since last week (still friendless, still the same ol' course, same ol' teachers, same ol' management), i've felt much better about it.
it's as if like, before that i was looking at the world through a sheet of glass pane, getting dirtier each day, spotty and cloudy. but now, someone has come and cleaned it for me. the world stays the same, but my heart is considerably lighter, my eyes clearer, my mind happier. thus, the world looked brighter, the colour more beautiful and the atmosphere more cheerful.
come to think of it, perhaps i was born and bred a confucious without knowing much of his teachings.
9:13 pm
Saturday 12 July 2008
going to meet yessichan in less than an hour's time. my house is very near TA, so no rush =P
still feeling the blues regarding next year, i mean next semester. now that i've updated my status from international student to PR, i gotta pay my school fees faster than international students, whom got extension til 12aug to pay their school fees. geez, if i'd known i wouldn't update my status so fast -___-:::
mom's coming back soon tonight. and i haven't talked to my dad about my future, in depth. i've told him that my grades aren't good. weren't good, and i doubt that it will be good. told him that i have no talent in this field. asked him him if it's okay that i'm wasting another year, not to mention the school fee that i duno go where (definitely not to buy facilities for students to use!) yet another year to pursue something that i'm not even sure i can use in the future...
and he simply said, "tapi loe bisa pass kan?" well, yea i could, but that's beside the point... unless the point is to get a degree no matter what degree that is...
if you consider that it's just another measly year...which should feel more like one loooooong dreadful gigantic semester, since i will be working on one collection for the whole year, for me to obtain a degree, an embel-embel [Bachelor of Arts (Hons.) in Fashion Design] to put behind my name (where do i write it down anyway, other than on my marriage invitation card?), it does feel kinda wasted if i stop now...
but if you consider that i will be alone, almost literally, and it will be the same teacher, the same thing that i'm gonna do, the same environment (or maybe different, if all the people are like out of my world) and the same everything else that i've done for the past 2 years (except that it's gotta be better, MUCH better), i can't help but feel the dread, the lethargy, the bad mood...
not to mention that most of my outside-school-friends are moving into another world, a world where i can't reach yet, it does add to the dreadfulness to go back to singapore. well, it's not that i will be able to find much time to go out with them like last time (before i entered lasalle, that is) anyway but it does feel kinda lonely to be studying when everyone else has the "employed/working" status attached to their backs. no longer slaving-for-hours-for-meagre-grades students. no longer out-of-bounds-nearing-assessment-or-exam-time students. no more party-til-you-drop-after-exam sessions. no more 3-months-holiday-after-a-semester's-worth-of-hard-work period of time. no more mass bye-people-see-you-all-next-month messages to each other.
as i predicted, it is going to be a supreme Back To Singapore Syndromme i'll have this month.
12:16 pm
Wednesday 9 July 2008
NEWS: Concert Tour Pacific 2007-2008 First Tokyo Dome Concert DVD
FINALLY! the DVD that i've been waiting to be released, the DVD that contains (MUST contain!!) tesshi singing Ai Nante solo.
it's scheduled to be released on 13th August 2008, and i just received the email from HMV Japan. BUT, guess what, the limited edition is already out of stock in cdjapan!! O.O it's not a wonder though, considering that both normal edition and limited edition are priced the same...
have to get it! hmm.... HAVE TO have it! let me think about it tonight and consider the price if i have to get it asap or it can wait til i'm back in singapore.
meanwhile, i've started my japanese lesson again ^__^ different teacher though. my new teacher, niske sensei, is somehow more focused on practicing listening and speaking, something that i don't get much during my lessons with nancy sensei. it's still quite easy, since we're just doing reviews on minna no nihongo I and doing the listening exercises that me and nancy sensei skipped last time. i suspect that when we proceed on to minna no nihongo II we;ll do more grammar and writing *shrugs* at any rate i'm glad i'm resuming my lesson!
12:38 am
Monday 7 July 2008
this is one short clip that tickles me a lot. Labels: tegomass
here they're supposed to be giving an excuse as to why they're late on their dates, with their date calling them on (really cute and gigantic) cellphone. no subtitles, but as far as i could try to guess, the host were saying like if they're nice guys they won't be late to start with. and tesshi gave the really sweet excuse of "since yesterday i was in a sweet dream with you, that's why i woke up late" that made the fans went "kyaaa~~~"
as for massu, it seemed like he was expecting to be asked the same question as tesshi, but when the girl phrased her question differently, he was caught off-guard and asked back, "where the hell are you?" instead of giving excuse xD
Hey Hey Hey - Tegomass (ai ai gasa promo)
perhaps what tickles me the most was the way tesshi laughed, kayaknya dia geli sendiri sama jawabannya sendiri xDD i definitely love his laughter! btw, the guy who was sitting in between of tesshi and massu, who's that? if i remember correctly it was the principal in Gachi Baka...right? o.O
and here's another one, winking segment xD tesshi adding a "chu~" to his wink xD
tesshi never escapes from hamada's abuse, does he? xP
6:49 pm
am i getting my holiday week counting wrong...? O.o i can't remember when i started counting, but i can't be bothered to check again now xD so, let it be let it be let it be~~ Labels: holiday, manga anime, tegomass
getting another dose of tegomass. since their last single release, i haven't been checking their tv appearances yet. for sure they appeared in the regular shows like music station, music fighter, utaban, hey hey hey, and perhaps music fair too. maybe not all, but definitely they'd be on several of these shows.
so, i've been checking youtube for these clips ^3^ and in the meanwhile i found some older clips that i've never seen. good to see them again =D tesshi seemed to be getting more mellow than his usual self....i kinda missed his spontaneous, bubbly, harmlessly-self-centered image after watching him being more serious, calm and (seemingly) matured image in ai ai gasa's promo o.O
080618 Sakigako Ongaku Banzuke - Tegomass - Ai Ai Gasa promo
see, don't you feel that he's becoming more solemn than usual? i missed his bubbly self... *watching MF during the promo of Miso Soup* ...especially his trademark laughing out loud with his mouth opened big and eyes squeezed shut xD only tesshi laughed like that in NEWS. oh well, perhaps this time that kind of promo doesn't suit the image of the song, ne.
btw let me talk briefly about Ai Ai Gasa single. as per plan, i didn't obtain the 3song+DVD version, instead i got the normal 4song+karaoke version. and, as per other tegomass singles, it was the right decision, because, as per other tegomass singles, the 4th song was, again, my favourite song of the single. it's called Boku no Cinderella and it's pretty catchy especially at the chorus part ^^ though among all 4th-song-in-the-single songs, i still like Sunadokei best, and Kibou no Hikari wo Kokoro ni Tomosou second ^^
ai ai gasa doesn't sound catchy the first time i hear it, or the next few times i heard it. it was okay, but it was below miso soup and kiss's standard, i originally thought. until i found the translation of the lyrics, and realised that tegomass really does specialise in super-sweet, romantic love songs o.O after knowing the translation, i like it as much as other singles.
but, since it has accompanied my in my daily karaoke-in-the-shower session, i realised that it wasn't a very easy song to sing, particularly because of the chorus part "toori sugiru ame ga sekashiteru". even with tesshi's voice, he hasn't been singing that part too well during live performances. add that to the really-low first part which makes it harder for me, as a girl, to reach, makes me ranking this song as the hardest tegomass single song to be sung. (the hardest tegomass song to sing is still, imo, kimi+boku=love)
080619 Music Japan - Tegomass - Ai Ai Gasa
i've not found all, but this one that i found was great. totally satisfied my craving for more tegomass songs. eventhough all they did was singing the cover song of someone else's, essentially it's still their voices. tesshi sounded like he's struggling to hit all the high notes, but it doesn't matter, i love his voice all the same ^o^ i don't know who the other 4 guys were, though, all i know that in youtube they're labelled as such.
080621 Music Fair - Tegomass and COLOR
it felt like tegomass karaoke session xD i love the song they sung on the 4min30sec =) they're suited to sing ballad-like songs like that =) and the last song that made their hair fly around, though maybe it was their hair flying around that i like instead of the song hahaha...
on a news-less news, i finally managed to rope koko into Death Note! i mean, i managed to push and drag and nag him into watching the anime version of Death Note, which i haven't even watched. while watching, he was asking some questions that showed that he was getting confused with the characters (obviously making reference to the movie version), i asked him to completely forget about the movie and just start watching the anime afresh, with a new clean sheet of memory and total absence of prejudice. hopefully he did...
we've gone through the first 2 episodes, and i'm quite satisfied with the story that followed about 80% of the original manga story. the other 20% was lost due to strange choice of laughter tone for Light and useless addition of menace in Light's image in the form of glinting eyes at several points that doesn't really reflect that innocent and kind Light at the start of the story. *sigh* but you can't have everything, ne? after the movie, which completely destroy and mangled to the uttermost detsruction the delicate balance in the ideals of both Kira and L, this anime is acceptably good =)
now if i just can convince him that the manga is even better... hmm...
4:29 pm
Saturday 5 July 2008
just some random story. i'm playing harvest moon back to nature in my psp. as usual, i'm having a lot of fun with the names. my original harvest moon back to nature farm in the playstation was called hayashi farm, and my character was called ekkusu, my doggie hide-chan and my horse...couldn't remember the name xD but i've had some random jrockers as my farm animals, like rentrer en soi's satsuki as my cow, which got sick and died later on *sobs* Labels: holiday
this time the jani jimusho's world feels much nearer to heart, furthermore i'm still listening to my new Ai Ai Gasa single every night while bathing. so, my farm is called NEWS farm, though my character is still called ekkusu. oh, i'm playing the girl version of the harvest moon this time instead of the original boy version.
the dog is the closest animal to the character, so i instinctively named it Yuyaan, and the next animal, the horse, yamapi. it's only after i played for several harvest moon days that hany made an illuminating remarks:
"yea right, ntar dia kawin sama kamu..." or something... which clicked something to my mind: the little doggie at the yodel ranch is called hana! and, truly, my dog is going to be married to it when it's older! L!O!L!
no, honestly i didn't do it on purpose. i didn't even remember of little hana (the dog at yodel ranch)'s existence until hany reminded me xDD but i was so full of glee. when yuyaan was brought to yodel ranch, i announced to hany and my cousin, lia: "yaaaay!! i'm getting married! i'm getting married!!" they quickly came, surprised that i was able to get married so quickly when i haven't even finished playing the 2nd year. "i'm getting married to tesshi~~~~" and when little hana was going to have its puppies, i announced again, "i'm pregnant! i'm pregnant!" LOL...
then, i have some cows and sheep. the oldest of the cow is called N~Ryo, the oldest of the sheep K~Kei. later on 2 more cows and sheep were bought, and they were called Massu~T, Inocchi, Shige~K and Okada respectively. since there were quite a big difference in the time when i bought them, they produced milk and wool of different quality.
when my oldest cow was finally producing L milk, a weird conversation took place:
me: yay!! finally ryo's milk is large!
me&hany: ...
me: oh my goodness that sounds so wrong!
hany: ya lor!
me: but nvm. yay, finally ryo's milk is large~~
hany: don't milk my ryo!
me&hany: ...omg that sounds even more wrong...
xD harvest moon is such fun game.
i'm redoing my NEWS farm, though, coz i didn't pay enough attention to yamapi and at the beginning of the second year he was taken away. i was so sad -_-;; so this time, i'm going to pay as much attention to yamapi as tegorin (my dog's new name)
anyone playing any games now?
awaiting for the release of Versailles's debut album!
10:06 pm
Thursday 3 July 2008
... on the birth of his nephew, redrich ^^ eh salah, harusnya congratulations to cicinya sbass for being a new mother ^__^ gw bilang namanya bagus skali. wish that richness will always follow him, be it in material or mental form ^__^
on the update in life.... ...what life? life is a wreck... at least it is so, in my mind. and to safe it from being a total wreck, i'm running away from it.
ever wonder why adults have all those wrinkles on their faces? now i realise that each line tells a story. i think within this 2 months, i've accumulated enough lines that i managed to avoid for the peaceful years in secondary school and JC.
i hate being on the down side of the wheel. if i can control the wheel of life, i'll create a powerful disc brake to stop it from spinning once i'm on top.
but that'll throw the whole balance of the world upside down, yea?
i'm not even making much sense now, do i?
random quote:
"why should i trust any of you? all of you have tried to kill me. and one of you suceeded."
11:51 pm
Wednesday 2 July 2008
this day, 10 years ago, i was travelling around penang, buying school supplies, textbooks, uniforms, shoes, go to school to review again my school entrance, blah blah blah... Labels: history
yes, i've left home for 10 years!
time sure flies, doesn't it?
penang time. especially july-november 1998. the wildest period of time of my life. the first time i ever lived without anyone's scrutiny and attention. the first time i ever held my own freedom, total freedom, freedom in the way i want to live my life, freedom in the way i want to think, freedom to spend money without anyone's "for what?" questions as to what i bought.
i learned hokkian. medan hokkian, to be precise, not my mom's tongue. i learned about BGR and how fun it would be to have no parents around to watch us being rude and crazy to each other in the process of wooing and getting wooed. in fact, as i recall again those days, it felt strangely manga-ish, the way we lived during those short 5 months of 1998. staying up late, having late-night ghost story-telling and seeing some with our own eyes (mine included!), visiting each other during black-outs since there wasn't anything to do (the boys live next door, about 10 metres away from ours, i think), having gossips, rivalry that grows into being enemies, spies, traitor (yours truly), woo-ers and woo-ees working in flocks (woo-ers come together and woo-ees refused them together, at least for a period of time), drama time and drama spots for people to get depressed and be alone for certain period of time, we all know the spots, of course, so it's easy to catch anyone missing, and naming those spots with melodramatic names: "pojok menyendiri" we called one at the far end of the HDB balcony (yes, in front of someone else's house xD).
the fact that i was a mere 12-year-old when all that happened doesn't have any impact to dampen my wild-ness. in fact, since i was among the youngest, i absorbed everything very quickly. and for some years to come i was mentioned to be acting older than my own age, and that i contributed to my housemates' influence.
and that was only the activities at home! at school, things were happening so quickly i could only remember blurred versions of everything. everyday (and i mean every-single-freaking-day) there would be a new student in the class. bear in mind that this is the year 1998, after the great riot. my class, RC1A, was quickly getting overcrowded with over 60 students in the class. soon RC1A was split into RC1A and RC1C, local students and indonesians respectively. RC1A and RC1B then would have no new students coming to disturb them for the rest of the time. RC1C, however, still grows exponentially until we were further divided into RC1C and RC1D, each with over 40 students in the class. the new students then went to RC1D, threatening to burst the class again. but, hey, 5 months wasn't that long, ne? we finished the year with 4 Remove Classes, 2 for malaysians, 2 for indonesians, the indonesian girls overnumbering the malaysian girls like crazy (since the school was originally all-boys school and only began accepting girls for a short period of time prior to our coming).
the scene in the year-3 was even more dramatic with the classes getting split until 3F (was there a 3G?) with the locals in 3A-3C, i think. by the end of the year, there were over 300 indonesians in Chung Ling Private High School. i was initially curious as to why the year-3 classes were placed in some really ulu corners of the school (i got the privilege to be housed in the new building at the front, so my classroom was big and bright) and now i understand, and i'm amazed that the school actually has so much extra classrooms to house us, the indonesian refugees.
special classes were held for us. in addition to the normal curriculum (they were all in bahasa malaysia, so we have no problems following them), we have chinese lessons starting from primary 1 level, and by the end of 1999 we've finished primary 4 level chinese. instead of us learning to speak malay, it seemed like the teachers were learnin to speak indonesians! i come to school in the morning at 6.30 and started doing my homeworks then. exams were like a treat for us indonesians (who were used to be getting tests every so often) coz they only happened twice a year! what a treat! xD i remembered that i didn't remember my own exam schedule. at 9pm, i called Vanity and asked her, "van, besok exam apa sih?" and she told me with exasperated tone, "besok tuh blahblahblah", and then i opened my textbook and started learning then. what really amazed me was that i was still able to get 10th position in the class even with such crazy preparation!
in terms of social life, it was also a blur. i developed depression, getting slightly schizoprenic, the terms "the world hates me and i hate the world!!!" for teens, i understand it absolutely completely. for a period of time i acted like a super jerk, it even embarrasses me now to remember the things i've done to my friends during that short shot of time, truly humiliating. but i also met great people. yenche and vanity who are still in contact with me even now, koko sigit who've been a great support for me during my darkest time in penang, not to mention crazy housemates whose crazy antics provided endless story for me for many years after that.
and, being a teenager, of course there were many eye-candies whom i gave nicknames for every one of them. some, i fell really hard for (if yessichan would remember mr panda, it was that serious) and some were just passing cuties who caught my attention. not many people would remember xiang jiao (banana) or snow white (senior! not junior xD) except yenche and vanity i suppose. and some guys whom i've hurt and acted rudely upon, i'm truly, truly sorry for the way i behaved. and my first boyfriend who went from being the kindest person, to the pitiable-est person, to the jerk-est person, to be friend again with me just to do something stupid again to make me angry again and promised never to forgive him anymore (repeat that last sentence in italics about 3-4 times) to be the 2nd last person i want to see in the whole wide world right now (the first one being my bitchy first guardian in singapore). i've had enough of games from him and the last one was too much, too painful and too embarrassing, and i don't want to experience it ever again.
a very short 5 months that felt like 5 years! honestly, ask me to reminiscene about my 3 years in st marg's, i'd be quiet coz i don't have many things to tell you, and instead i'll start talking about X Japan coz that was when i got to know them. but ask me about penang, and i'd also be quiet, but because there were too many things to tell and i don't know what to tell. it was a short roller-coaster period of my life and i'm truly glad that i was at that place at that time of my teen-time and i didn't fall into serious mischief or develop some weird character traits that would taint me for life. instead i learned valuable lessons, numerous of them, and a thick book of memorable happenings that i will carry for the rest of my life.
everyone who have crossed path with me in penang, thank you very much. miss you all a lot!
12:31 pm
Tuesday 1 July 2008
really fast update!! can write a paragraph for each point but koko's waiting by my elbow (not literally) to send email to his teacher so...
1. i passed my diploma course! now to really really ponder if it's worth it to continue to degree.
2. my Ai Ai Gasa CD has safely arrived to jakarta and now i'm listening to it every night while bathing
3. my life is not much different from tony's, though with variations in the activities (same boredom and repetition-ess)
4. hany's back to singapore
5. i finally attained priest-hood in maple story! banzai to me!
6. experiencing BTSS (back to singapore syndromme) coz there are too many things weighing on my mind currently
7. next year i'll be alone in the degree class....??!?!??!?!?!?!?!?! i mean everyone of my close friends circle isn't continuing...what a jolly good year it's gonna be...... NOT!
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Vanessa
~ 04S55 ~
Becky
Sook Yee
Xiao Hui
Xiao Ling
Yessi-chan
~ non 04S55 ~
Ban Leng
Pamela/Priscilla/Naseem
Shamane
Aini
Alex
Carynl
Chong Ming
JeeCheng
Joyce
Kelley
Rena
Weini
~ indoez VIPs ~
Edmond
Tommo
Xiau Feng
Yenche
D'Fauraven
Gavin
Zek
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CD Wishlist
JaeChunSu - The... (preordered)
JYJ - Thanksgiving Live in Dome DVD (preordered)
Tegomasu - Tegomasu no Ai minialbum
Versailles - Ascendead Master (mini movies in Limited Ed singles type I,II,III)
Yoshiki - Eternal Melody 1
Versailles Philharmonic Quintet - Jubilee (major debut album)
Jejung & Yuchun from Tohoshinki - COLOR~ Melody & Harmony/Shelter Double A single
Tohoshinki - Stand By U single
Dong Bang Shin Gi - Rising Sun album
Tohoshinki - Five in the Black album
Tohoshinki - Heart, Mind, Soul album
Dong Bang Shin Gi - Tri-Angle album
Tegomassu - Tegomassu no Uta album
Tegomassu - Tanabata Matsuri
NEWS - Touch
Tegomass - Miso Soup
Yamashita Tomohisa - Daite Senorita
Hizaki GRACE Project - Ruined Kingdom
Hizaki Grace Project - Dignity of Crest
Within Temptation - Mother Earth or Silent Force
Saint Preux - Concerto Pour Deux Voix
Lord of the Rings Complete Recordings
Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers Complete Recordings
Raphael (Kazuki) - Forever and Ever
Raphael - Raphael Singles
X - Vanishing Vision Album
X Japan - Dahlia Album
X Japan - Art of Life ~mini album
X Japan - Art of Life ~live
L'Arc en Ciel - Smile
Hyde - 666
DVD Wishlist
Tohoshinki - The Secret Code live in Tokyo Dome
TVXQ - All About TVXQ Season III DVD <--- !
Versailles Philharmonic Quintet - Chateau De Versailles DVD
Versailles Philharmonic Quintet - History Of The Other Side DVD
X Japan Returns Complete DVD 30th/31st December 1993
Versailles - Aesthetics HIZAKI version, with perfume Princess Stairs
Versailles - Aesthetics Kamijo version, with perfume Louise
Hizaki Grace Project - Monsho
Raphael - First
Raphael - Last
Raphael - Raphael Clips
Raphael - Pictorial Poem 2
X Japan - Art Of Life - 1993.12.31 Tokyo Dome
X Japan - Dahlia Tour / Dahlia Tour Final
X Japan - Complete Collection II (which, upon acquiring, will cancel the earlier 2 DVDs mentioned)
hide - Film The Psychommunity Reel.1
hide - Film The Psychommunity Reel.2
hide - Seventeen Clips - Perfect Clips Presented By Hide Museum
hide - Ugly Pink Machine File 2
hide - Alivest Perfect Stage 10000 Cuts Hide Hide Hide
CD In Possession
Versailles Philharmonic Quintet - Jubilee (major debut album)
Tohoshinki - Bolero/Kiss The Baby Sky/Wasurenaide Triple A single <--- !the perfect single!
Tohoshinki - Stand By U single
Dong Bang Shin Gi - Mirotic album (Platinum edition)
Tohoshinki - T album
Tohoshinki - The Secret Code album
Versailles - Ascendead Master (Reg + Ltd Ed. DVD Type I, II, III)
NEWS - Koi no ABO single (Reg and Ltd Ed.) <-- i'm selling the regular edition, contact me if you're interested (only for beijing, singapore and jakarta buyers only)
Versailles - Prince & Princess single
NEWS - Color album
Versailles - Noble album
Tegomass - Ai Ai Gasa single
Tegomass - Kiss ~Kaerimichi no Love Song single
NEWS - Summer Time single
NEWS - pacific album
My Chemical Romance - I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love
HIM - And Love Said No, The Greatest Hits 1997 - 2004
HIZAKI Grace Project - Curse of Virgo single
Hyde - Faith
Yui - Can't Buy My Love
Versailles - Lyrical Sympathy mini album
Yoshiki - Catacombs Soundtrack
HIZAKI - Maiden Ritual ~experimental edition
HIZAKI - Dance with grace
Raphael - Fumetsuka
Within Temptation - Heart of Everything
X Japan - Blue Blood & Blue Blood Special Edition
X Japan - Jealousy & Jealousy Special Edition
X Japan - The Last Live
X Japan - X Japan on Piano
X Japan - B.O.X (Best of X)
X Japan - X Japan Perfect Best
X Japan - Best Fans Collection
Yoshiki - Eternal Melody II
hide - hide BEST Psychommunity
Malice Mizer - La Meilleur Selection de Malice Mizer "best selection"
Moi dix Mois - Dix Infernal
Gackt - Mars
Dir en grey - Macabre
L'Arc en Ciel - Awake
L'Arc en Ciel - The Best of L'Arc en Ciel 1998-2000
Luna Sea - Never Sold Out
Glay - Speed POP
Glay - Rare Collection vol.1
Glay - Rare Collection vol.2
Glay - Love is Beautiful
Glay - Drive, Complete Best
GLOBE - Level 4
Aikawa Nanase - ID, Best Album
Hamasaki Ayumi - Duty
Every Little Thing - Every Best Single + 3
V6 - seVen
V6 - Very Best I
V6 - Very Best II
My Chemical Romance - Threee Cheers For Sweet Revenge
My Chemical Romance - The Black Parade
DVD/VCD in possession
X Japan - X VISUAL SHOCK DVD BOX 1989-1992
TVXQ - All About TVXQ Season II DVD Set <--- ♥&hearts♥
NEWS - Pacific Concert 2007-2008 and First Tokyo Dome Concert
NEWS - Never Ending Wonderful Story
Happy Feet Japanese version - Tegoshi Yuya as Mumble
X Japan - Aoi Yoru Shiroi Yoru Complete Box
Yoshiki - Yoshiki Symphonic 2002 featuring Violet UK
hide - Ugly Pink Machine File 1
X - Hamettsu ni Mukatte 'On The Verge of Destruction' Concert
X Japan - The Last Live
X - X Clip 1
Phase 3.2 (2008)
Phase 3.1 (2008)
Phase 2.0 and 2.1 (2007)
Phase 1.2 (2006)
Phase 1.1 (2006)
Phase 1.0 (2006)
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featuring: Yoshiki
about: Yochan underwent a surgery to correct his spine, a problem that had persisted since 1995, when he finally started to feel numbness in his fingers. the surgery went fine, thank goodness. hopefully he will recover completely and it doesn't affect his piano playing. as for drums...don't forget your neck braces everytime you drums, yochan!
etc: read below xD i've made too many layouts featuring Yoshiki i don't wish to repeat myself =P
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Featuring: Versailles
Background: formed in 2007 by founding member Kamijo (ex Lareine) and Hizaki (ex Sulfuric Acid), they released their debut single Revenant Choir which tells a story about a clan.
Just as like Kamijo's past works, Versailles tells a story through their symphonic metal music and extravagantly elaborate costumes inspired from antique European era.
Members: Kamijo (vocals), Hizaki (guitar), Teru (guitar), Jasmine-You (bass), Yuki (drums)
etc: Versailles beautiful music managed to win my heart totally. saddened by the loss of Jasmine-YOU in 2009, but i hope the 4 of them will still make great music from now onwards. rest in peace, Jasmine-YOU, and watch out for the guys from up there...
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featuring: S.K.I.N.
Background: Formed in 2007, performed first during Anime Expo at the States in May.
Members: Yoshiki (drums, piano, guitar), Gackt (vocal, piano), Sugizo (guitar, violin), Miyavi (guitar, shamisen)
etc: ekkusu phase 2.0 was lost because i didn't save it in photobucket (because it refused to upload it properly).
and so, from now i'll start my skin from phase .1 instead of .0
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Featuring: Hiruma Youichi
Model's background: manga character (Eyeshield 21)
More about the model: quarterback of Deimon Devilbats, The Commander From Hell;
the backbone and the brain behind Deimon High School's American Football Club, The Deimon Devilbats.
Icons: various facial expressions of Hiruma, the maniacal, elven-faced leader of Devilbats ^^
Etc: Eyeshield 21 is a sports manga about American Football and it's one of my current favourite.
My rating for them is:
hilarity 10/10
excitement: 9/10
intellectual level: 9/10
drawing: 7/10
characterisation: 9/10
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Featuring: Hayashi Yoshiki
Model's background: leader, drummer, pianist, main composer of legendary band X Japan (1982-1997); leader, drummer, pianist,
guitarist, composer of band Violet UK, debut coming soon.
More about the model: Yoshiki in the early X Japan era in early 90's when he still has long curly locks.
Etc: YOSHIKI IS MY HERO AND IDOL!
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Featuring: Hayashi Yoshiki
Model's background: leader, drummer, pianist, main composer of legendary band X Japan (1982-1997); leader, drummer, pianist,
guitarist, composer of band Violet UK, debut coming soon. Born in Tateyama, Chiba (Japan) in 20th November 1965 and currently living in Los Angeles, California (USA).
Head company of Extasy Records, Extasy Japan and Extasy Records International (now defunct). http://myspace.com/yoshiki
More about the model: the faint background picture of Yoshiki was taken in the recent years when he's already cut his hair short and
started the habit of wearing sunglasses.
Icons: pictures taken from Yoshiki's house in LA: his front door, piano in the middle room, dining room and swimming pool.
Etc: I can write essays on Yoshiki, but let's just keep it simple and straightforward: YOSHIKI IS MY HERO AND IDOL!